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Jan. 12th, 2011
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It never gets any easier
Jan. 12th, 2011 05:54 amToday is my grandpa's viewing/visitation.
Honestly, I'm not looking forward to it. This the 3rd death in our family in the last 4 years and I'm sick of seeing dead bodies in caskets. I couldn't stand to see my dad like that or even my uncle and I know I don't want to see my grandpa that way either. They do what they can to make the body look nice, at peace and all that, but it just looks wrong to me. The person isn't alive anymore, they're just an empty shell.
I don't get a choice, of course. Since I'm the transportation for my mom & my aunt, I'll have to go anyway. I know my mom's going to make me take a picture, too, like she did with my dad & uncle. It's just plain morbid in my opinion. I still can't look at the pictures of my dad's body in the casket....or even my uncle.
We'll be going through more stuff at his house afterwards. It's a long, tedious process and we're barely scratching the surface. The funeral itself is on Saturday and I gotta admit, I'm starting to get nervous about that too. I've never received a flag before. I know it's a big honor and all that, but I have no idea how it's going to effect me.
Now I'm just rambling and I know I need to get some sleep. *trundles off to make JC post & go to bed*
Honestly, I'm not looking forward to it. This the 3rd death in our family in the last 4 years and I'm sick of seeing dead bodies in caskets. I couldn't stand to see my dad like that or even my uncle and I know I don't want to see my grandpa that way either. They do what they can to make the body look nice, at peace and all that, but it just looks wrong to me. The person isn't alive anymore, they're just an empty shell.
I don't get a choice, of course. Since I'm the transportation for my mom & my aunt, I'll have to go anyway. I know my mom's going to make me take a picture, too, like she did with my dad & uncle. It's just plain morbid in my opinion. I still can't look at the pictures of my dad's body in the casket....or even my uncle.
We'll be going through more stuff at his house afterwards. It's a long, tedious process and we're barely scratching the surface. The funeral itself is on Saturday and I gotta admit, I'm starting to get nervous about that too. I've never received a flag before. I know it's a big honor and all that, but I have no idea how it's going to effect me.
Now I'm just rambling and I know I need to get some sleep. *trundles off to make JC post & go to bed*
Just 'Cause
Jan. 12th, 2011 06:09 am
This cap is from 1x09 "Home".
Click to see the full-sized version.
My gosh, look at those stunning green eyes...and the freckles! *dreamy sigh*
The days march on and yet I'm still behind in things. The predicted snow fell overnight and we've got 2 inches, but now rain is moving in and it's supposed to all melt away. I'm tired/sleepy and emotionally all over the map, so I'll just wish you all a good Wednesday and say goodnight. *hugs*
