When you feel like you're done, and the darkness has won

So I'm awake, but now I'm all melancholy and thinky. Letting my brain ponder about things for a long time always leads to trouble. And somehow I got this Michael Buble' song in my head, which I love, but it brings up so many feelings....longing, regret....so much.

Damn. I wish things were different. Sure, I'm working my dream job right now, but my personal life is down the tubes. Am I ever going to meet a guy? Have a romantic relationship instead of one of just friendship? Is there any hope at my age? I'm no skinny beauty and I've never been a social butterfly. I'm shy. It takes me a while to warm up to people. Maybe I'm fated to be alone. It's not what I want, but maybe this is simply the way my life is meant to be.

Yep, still having a sucky, screwed up day/night. Back to capping now...

Here's the song, "Lost" by Michael Buble'

Christmas Cottage Extended Movie Clip

Jared's "Christmas Cottage" movie is set to be released straight to DVD next month. Yesterday an extended clip of the film made its way online and is now on YouTube.

I made an mp4 high quality (18mb) version of the video for dean_sam, so I figured I'd share it here as well.

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=O1431A44

YouTube video provided by NickyHeartsJared.

Just 'Cause - Armed & Ready Week 3

This cap from S2 "Croatoan".

I really have nothing to say. I'm going to bed now in the hopes that when I wake up I'll feel better.

Big surprise...life still sucks

Today was still "off" and bad like yesterday.
I don't even know how to talk about it and not sure if I even should. I get the feeling everyone is sick of hearing me whine about my silly little problems. Certainly can't say that I blame you. There are others on my flist who I know are going through far more difficult situations than I am.

I wish I could break this feeling. I know it's all my own fault. I could probably break free if I really tried. Maybe tomorrow I'll find the way.