Rainy days make me blue
May. 21st, 2008 03:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raloriaI went to bed last night irritable and frustrated. Today I'm cold and it's raining and instead of feeling better I feel worse. *sigh* Must be the PMS talking.
Mom & I had just finished listening to the commentary track on the "Dances With Wolves" DVD last night and I suddenly got all bitchy. As I got ready for bed I realized what was wrong. I was jealous. I'd just spent 4 hours listening to Kevin Costner and his partner Jim Wilson recall all the fun and trials of getting "Dances" made and I was jealous. I've had some of those same experiences on the student films I've been a part of. Working closely with people and becoming a "family", dealing with changing weather conditions, long hours on the set where you were ready to drop, and that first nervous day of filming. I miss those days...desperately.
I'm slated to work on a film production this summer, but the filming of it has been delayed until August and the waiting is grating on me. I've nearly got all my Script Supervising gear together and here I am getting frustrated because I can't be working on a film set right now! I miss it so much. The people and working on something together. Just the environment, which is full of energy and life, is something I find myself longing for. I also just love the movie making process, right down to the equipment. It's really hard to put into words. But I have to wait over 2 more months before I get to be in that wonderful environment again. *sigh*
Okay....enough moping. I'm going to try to get my head in a better place and get something productive done instead of being depressed. I've got a whole list of things to do (12 to be exact, most of them involving LJ posts) and it's about time I got started. There's a lot more going on to be depressed about, but I'm going to try not to think about them.
Leave me a little comment of cheer or something, okay? Pics of Jensen, Jared, Sam, or Dean are always welcome. My flist has been a little quiet lately and I just want to know you're all still out there. *hugs flist tight*
Mom & I had just finished listening to the commentary track on the "Dances With Wolves" DVD last night and I suddenly got all bitchy. As I got ready for bed I realized what was wrong. I was jealous. I'd just spent 4 hours listening to Kevin Costner and his partner Jim Wilson recall all the fun and trials of getting "Dances" made and I was jealous. I've had some of those same experiences on the student films I've been a part of. Working closely with people and becoming a "family", dealing with changing weather conditions, long hours on the set where you were ready to drop, and that first nervous day of filming. I miss those days...desperately.
I'm slated to work on a film production this summer, but the filming of it has been delayed until August and the waiting is grating on me. I've nearly got all my Script Supervising gear together and here I am getting frustrated because I can't be working on a film set right now! I miss it so much. The people and working on something together. Just the environment, which is full of energy and life, is something I find myself longing for. I also just love the movie making process, right down to the equipment. It's really hard to put into words. But I have to wait over 2 more months before I get to be in that wonderful environment again. *sigh*
Okay....enough moping. I'm going to try to get my head in a better place and get something productive done instead of being depressed. I've got a whole list of things to do (12 to be exact, most of them involving LJ posts) and it's about time I got started. There's a lot more going on to be depressed about, but I'm going to try not to think about them.
Leave me a little comment of cheer or something, okay? Pics of Jensen, Jared, Sam, or Dean are always welcome. My flist has been a little quiet lately and I just want to know you're all still out there. *hugs flist tight*
