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raloriaSunday....now early Monday was/is pure suckage.
First, I get very little sleep Saturday night because of that job offer staring me in the face. I spend most of Sunday stressing over said job offer before turning it down. So I already wasn't in the best state from the get-go. I'm drained and tired...from the lack of sleep and that stress earlier. I find a way to recover: I make some posts, watch the Olympics close, chat online with friends, and try to catch up on my lost day due to all that job offer stress. Then I remember....today (the 25th) would have been my Dad's 70th birthday. Mom & I are going to go lay flowers at his grave later today, weather permitting (it's been raining a lot). I keep doing stuff online...trying not to think about it. I keep busy even though I don't have a lot of motivation to do the LJ post prep work I should be doing.
Oh...and then I get defriended. Nice. Real nice. Could she have picked a worse day for this? I'm not really upset about her defriending me. We didn't hit it off and I've honestly been expecting her to defriend me for a long time now. But doing it today of all days *shakes head*...and she even commented on my job offer post, so she knows I was stressed out. I've promptly defriended her back....and dropped her comm too, which never amounted to anything. Good riddance. I'm not going to hide how pissed I am. Of all the times she could have defriended me, she chooses today. I think if I wasn't so tired I wouldn't be so upset about it, but...yeah....why not pour lemon juice into my paper cut while you're at it?
What is with people???? I got defriended while I was busy working on the film a few weeks ago and on semi-hiatus, and now this! Are people simply waiting for me not to be here or to be vulnerable somehow and choose that time to cut me? "Oh, look....now's my chance to finally get rid of her!" Totally rotten. I don't pull that kind of crap on people!
*sigh* I really want to post today's cap, go to bed, and forget the past 24 hours even happened. Maybe then I can face the fact that my Dad's not here and that I'm missing him terribly right now.
First, I get very little sleep Saturday night because of that job offer staring me in the face. I spend most of Sunday stressing over said job offer before turning it down. So I already wasn't in the best state from the get-go. I'm drained and tired...from the lack of sleep and that stress earlier. I find a way to recover: I make some posts, watch the Olympics close, chat online with friends, and try to catch up on my lost day due to all that job offer stress. Then I remember....today (the 25th) would have been my Dad's 70th birthday. Mom & I are going to go lay flowers at his grave later today, weather permitting (it's been raining a lot). I keep doing stuff online...trying not to think about it. I keep busy even though I don't have a lot of motivation to do the LJ post prep work I should be doing.
Oh...and then I get defriended. Nice. Real nice. Could she have picked a worse day for this? I'm not really upset about her defriending me. We didn't hit it off and I've honestly been expecting her to defriend me for a long time now. But doing it today of all days *shakes head*...and she even commented on my job offer post, so she knows I was stressed out. I've promptly defriended her back....and dropped her comm too, which never amounted to anything. Good riddance. I'm not going to hide how pissed I am. Of all the times she could have defriended me, she chooses today. I think if I wasn't so tired I wouldn't be so upset about it, but...yeah....why not pour lemon juice into my paper cut while you're at it?
What is with people???? I got defriended while I was busy working on the film a few weeks ago and on semi-hiatus, and now this! Are people simply waiting for me not to be here or to be vulnerable somehow and choose that time to cut me? "Oh, look....now's my chance to finally get rid of her!" Totally rotten. I don't pull that kind of crap on people!
*sigh* I really want to post today's cap, go to bed, and forget the past 24 hours even happened. Maybe then I can face the fact that my Dad's not here and that I'm missing him terribly right now.
