Just call me Miss Grouchypuss
Oct. 17th, 2008 11:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raloria*grumble*grumble*grumble*
I feel the need to rant a bit. Feel free to ignore...it's just me, venting 'cause I need to.
Rant #1: I have to drive myself to our filming locations later today. I know, I know....boo, hoo. I agree, I'm being a big baby about it. This is what happens when you get too used to relatives driving you to set locations for weeks. I'm spoiled. Plain and simple. Mom kind of guilted me into driving myself, so I gave in and said, "Fine! I'll do it myself!" Sheesh. Sure, it'd be easier to let someone else drive me there, find the exact location (it's a bookstore at a shopping mall), and drop me off. And I do feel bad about bothering my aunt & uncle all the time to drive me, but....yeah....it's also been kinda nice. I can sleep if I want/need to, get my notebook ready on the drive there, and basically relax before I get to set. Can't do any of that if I drive myself. *pouts a little*
Oh, well....*iz resigned*
And yes, I know I'm being overly silly about this whole thing. I'll snap back to reality later.
Rant #2: I got one part (out of 4) of 4x05 downloaded from my wonderful source, which I cannot name. Super. But then with the 2nd part Megaupload decided to revoke me and say my download limit was exceeded. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Any other time I don't get that until maybe the 3rd part, tops. So I've got part one and that's it. I'm waiting to be allowed to download the other parts. Bah! *iz impatient*
Rant #3: I'm happy for the Aussie fans over getting Jared & Jensen at the next convention, I am. But...the other part of me...the evil fangirl part of me is terribly fed up and jealous. It's Season Four and I still haven't met the guys. Will I ever get a chance. For god's sake I live a meer 155 miles away from them up in Vancouver!!!! Yet people from the east coast, mid-west, and all over the world have met them - either at conventions or by traveling to Vancouver. *sigh* It's so frustrating and I know there's plenty of others out there who haven't met the guys either. I know I'm not alone. We're all just too nice to say it in front of everyone else. No...we're all..."Oh, I'm so happy for you!" Yeah....we are. Truly. But there's this other part....that isn't. Like I said, it's my evil fangirl side. She's not so pleasant...and she feels meeting Jensen is her life goal. She needs to meet the man. She has questions. She wants to bask in the handsomeness that is Jensen firsthand. Drooling over videos and photos just isn't the same. Dare I say it...she wants to touch the man. Hey, others have. Why not me?
But, no. I'm stuck here. Not going to Vancouver. Not seeing the guys. Not going to conventions which are all too far away and too expensive. Although goodness knows if they had a convention closer to me I'd find some way to go. But where do all the conventions happen? LA, Texas, Chicago, Florida, England, Australia. Is this a conspiracy? Keep the boys away from Valerie. Keep them away from Washington state. There's no SPN fans there. *whines* I wanna see the guys!!!!!!
Rant #4: Back to the film production I'm on. I've mentioned that others on the crew (and the cast because we never need everyone every day) get to take days off. Well, one of our PA/Craft Services guys just got back from a vacation....for a week. *grumbles* Nice. I don't get days off. I have to be on set every day we film. Yet so many others on the crew just take off for days. Isn't that nice. Sorry...I'm over here...doing my job! *fumes* I love my job, I do, but the fact that so many others get to have days off when I don't? It can get a little frustrating after a while. The only people who are there every day other than myself are the director and the camera operator. We never miss a day. In fact, lately we've been getting by (whether we want to or not) with a smaller and smaller crew. I think a lot of people aren't doing their jobs like they originally were. I'm sure they've just got other jobs, but still....I also think some of them are just taking a day or two off.
Rant #5: This is more a rant against myself. I'm frustrated that because of working on this film that I can't post stuff to LJ like I usually do. And I'm more behind in comments than ever. *sighs* I want to post stuff but A) either I don't have enough time to do it or B) I get started only to fall asleep and then run out of time. I'm not getting my caps for the current SPN episodes posted until way late...and my First Impressions posts are the same way. I hate making you wait for them. Then there's all the other posts I can't get to....the other goody posts: caps, fanart, fanfic, and more. *heavy sigh*
And I'm so messed up I'm going to now feel bad for making this post and taking all the time to type this up when I could have been posting something for all of you.
I think that's it. I really needed to get this stuff off my chest and out of my head. I really think a lot of this is coming from not getting enough sleep and the crazy hours and lifestyle I'm living while working on this film production. It's not easy or normal. I feel like it's started to wear me down. I need a vacation...which I won't get, of course. *sigh....again* If you've read this whole post, I thank you for putting up with my rantings. *hugs flist*
I feel the need to rant a bit. Feel free to ignore...it's just me, venting 'cause I need to.
Rant #1: I have to drive myself to our filming locations later today. I know, I know....boo, hoo. I agree, I'm being a big baby about it. This is what happens when you get too used to relatives driving you to set locations for weeks. I'm spoiled. Plain and simple. Mom kind of guilted me into driving myself, so I gave in and said, "Fine! I'll do it myself!" Sheesh. Sure, it'd be easier to let someone else drive me there, find the exact location (it's a bookstore at a shopping mall), and drop me off. And I do feel bad about bothering my aunt & uncle all the time to drive me, but....yeah....it's also been kinda nice. I can sleep if I want/need to, get my notebook ready on the drive there, and basically relax before I get to set. Can't do any of that if I drive myself. *pouts a little*
Oh, well....*iz resigned*
And yes, I know I'm being overly silly about this whole thing. I'll snap back to reality later.
Rant #2: I got one part (out of 4) of 4x05 downloaded from my wonderful source, which I cannot name. Super. But then with the 2nd part Megaupload decided to revoke me and say my download limit was exceeded. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Any other time I don't get that until maybe the 3rd part, tops. So I've got part one and that's it. I'm waiting to be allowed to download the other parts. Bah! *iz impatient*
Rant #3: I'm happy for the Aussie fans over getting Jared & Jensen at the next convention, I am. But...the other part of me...the evil fangirl part of me is terribly fed up and jealous. It's Season Four and I still haven't met the guys. Will I ever get a chance. For god's sake I live a meer 155 miles away from them up in Vancouver!!!! Yet people from the east coast, mid-west, and all over the world have met them - either at conventions or by traveling to Vancouver. *sigh* It's so frustrating and I know there's plenty of others out there who haven't met the guys either. I know I'm not alone. We're all just too nice to say it in front of everyone else. No...we're all..."Oh, I'm so happy for you!" Yeah....we are. Truly. But there's this other part....that isn't. Like I said, it's my evil fangirl side. She's not so pleasant...and she feels meeting Jensen is her life goal. She needs to meet the man. She has questions. She wants to bask in the handsomeness that is Jensen firsthand. Drooling over videos and photos just isn't the same. Dare I say it...she wants to touch the man. Hey, others have. Why not me?
But, no. I'm stuck here. Not going to Vancouver. Not seeing the guys. Not going to conventions which are all too far away and too expensive. Although goodness knows if they had a convention closer to me I'd find some way to go. But where do all the conventions happen? LA, Texas, Chicago, Florida, England, Australia. Is this a conspiracy? Keep the boys away from Valerie. Keep them away from Washington state. There's no SPN fans there. *whines* I wanna see the guys!!!!!!
Rant #4: Back to the film production I'm on. I've mentioned that others on the crew (and the cast because we never need everyone every day) get to take days off. Well, one of our PA/Craft Services guys just got back from a vacation....for a week. *grumbles* Nice. I don't get days off. I have to be on set every day we film. Yet so many others on the crew just take off for days. Isn't that nice. Sorry...I'm over here...doing my job! *fumes* I love my job, I do, but the fact that so many others get to have days off when I don't? It can get a little frustrating after a while. The only people who are there every day other than myself are the director and the camera operator. We never miss a day. In fact, lately we've been getting by (whether we want to or not) with a smaller and smaller crew. I think a lot of people aren't doing their jobs like they originally were. I'm sure they've just got other jobs, but still....I also think some of them are just taking a day or two off.
Rant #5: This is more a rant against myself. I'm frustrated that because of working on this film that I can't post stuff to LJ like I usually do. And I'm more behind in comments than ever. *sighs* I want to post stuff but A) either I don't have enough time to do it or B) I get started only to fall asleep and then run out of time. I'm not getting my caps for the current SPN episodes posted until way late...and my First Impressions posts are the same way. I hate making you wait for them. Then there's all the other posts I can't get to....the other goody posts: caps, fanart, fanfic, and more. *heavy sigh*
And I'm so messed up I'm going to now feel bad for making this post and taking all the time to type this up when I could have been posting something for all of you.
I think that's it. I really needed to get this stuff off my chest and out of my head. I really think a lot of this is coming from not getting enough sleep and the crazy hours and lifestyle I'm living while working on this film production. It's not easy or normal. I feel like it's started to wear me down. I need a vacation...which I won't get, of course. *sigh....again* If you've read this whole post, I thank you for putting up with my rantings. *hugs flist*
