Life sucks tonight

[raloria]

It's been an "off" day from the get go. Woke up late, didn't eat anything until supper, no comments are coming in, LJ is dead, and I'm feeling lousy & depressed. And just now? A bug tried to fly up my nose and my mom & I got in a mini yelling match and I've got a headache. Yeah...things are simply peachy.

Add to that that apparently most of my flist must be in Chicago at the convention to see the boys and I'm not and you've got a pretty sucky evening. So my mood is bad and I'm bitchy. And surprise! I've got more filming to go to tomorrow. We're starting pickups.....already. We have an 11 a.m. call time and it'll take me an hour to drive there. Meh. Naturally it's an outdoor shoot and the weather's cold and wet. Right now the only thing motivating me to go is meeting up with the people again that I've become buddies with on this project. I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow (I'd better), but tonight I'm dreading the thought of getting up and going there.

Back to my LJ issues....I realize a lot of people visit my journal, look at my posts, and never comment. Then there are those of you who comment all the time or at least fairly frequently. You guys are great and I love hearing from you even though it takes me forever to respond back. But what about the rest of you. You can't leave me...something? Some little comment to critique what I've done? I'll take bad comments as well as good....I can hack it. But give me something, okay? Call me needy, but I live for feedback. Being the artistic person I am, I need to know how I'm doing, what people think. Without that how do I know I'm doing a good job?

If people want to defriend me for wanting comments, well there's nothing I can do about that. Defriend away. I can't stop you. Say I have a big ego or I'm selfish. Maybe you're right. All I can say is what I say all the time....I make this stuff for you. And I know so many of you know this and appreciate what I do because you leave me the most wonderful comments that touch my heart and remind me that the hours I spend capping and making posts are all worth it. *hugs* You're the best and I'm so thankful to have you. But I guess every now and then, when the comments ease up it makes me wonder and I get down on myself. So yeah, I'm needy and every now and then when I get down my ego needs bolstering. If that makes me a bad person then so be it.

*sigh* I already know this is going to be one of those posts I regret in an hour or two. Sorry to be all emo and bitchy. :(