Two Memes about Me

[raloria]

Grabbed from enablelove. :)

1. My username is ______ because ______.
My username is raloria because it's the name I came up with for the planet in a movie script I've been working on since 2005. Once I started watching SPN, I instantly started writing the hero lead character with Jensen Ackles in mind. I like the sound of the word and it now has ties to SPN and Jensen, so it's a perfect match IMO. :)

2. My name is _____ because ______.
My name is Valerie because my mom knew a girl in high school with that name and she always liked it.

3. My journal is titled ____ because ____.
My journal is titled You Just Can't Quit because it's one of my favorite Ricky Nelson songs and it has a very positive, inspirational message.

4. My friends page is called ____ because ____.
My friends page is called Friends because....I'm lame and lazy and haven't come up with a cool name for it in the two years I've had this journal. *sigh*

5. My default userpic is ____ because ____.
My default userpic is constantly changing because it's the one slot I like to be able to change for any given mood or situation. Right now it's One Kiss, the icon I made from my caps of the Space Promo for 5x10. I loved the near kiss between Dean and Jo and even though this didn't turn out to be their real kiss, I still love the imagery. Plus, Jensen looks so sinfully beautiful when he's kissing. Le sigh.... :)



This meme grabbed from sinnerforhire. :)

You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.


1. First Name: Valerie

2. Age: 36

3. Location: Between Seattle & Tacoma in Washington state.

4. Occupation: I'm a freelance Script Supervisor for films done here in the Puget Sound area. Sadly, I haven't worked since last year, but with the economy being so bad, nobody has money to fund many films. I've also heard I'm up against 5 other SS in the area. Kinda discouraging, but I'm determined to find some work next year and get my butt into gear. I can also possibly find work as a still photographer on films, because I've been told that my photos are very good and that I have "a good eye". I'm willing to work at either job and I'm hoping there will be more film opportunities next year. I'm even strongly considering doing some set stalking next year in order to meet people which might lead to a job. I truly miss working on a movie set!

5. Partner: None. *sigh* I live at home with my mom and I've never been into the party scene and I don't drink, so bars are out as well. I basically live the life of a hermit. Yet even when I was out in the real world and going to college there was nothing going on. I had one possible love interest, but we were only friends and he's since moved down to CA to be with his girlfriend. *heavy sigh* I'd certainly like to find a guy, but there's no opportunities, no prospects, and currently no hope of finding one anytime soon. :(

6. Kids: Long time ago I dreamed of having kids, but the truth is I really don't get along well with them. I feel awkward around children and have no experience in that area.

7. Brothers/Sisters: None. I am an only child.

8. Pets: None. Seeing a trend here? I had two cats, but they're both in kitty heaven now and I still miss my furry buddies. Frisky was my little girl: a black & white, prim and delicate, affectionate, but not a lap cat. I'd had her from 6 months old and she died suddenly back around 2000. Blackie I found in 1988 as a stray. He was sick and dirty and near death when I found him. He started out as a wild cat, but with age he mellowed and became very loving. He got sick several years ago and had to be put down as well. I have my moments where I still wish I had some cats, but my lifestyle has changed since then and it would be too difficult to take care of them.

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:

VanCon (past & future): I'm still missing Vancouver after nearly 3 months and still have my convention reports to do before I totally forget everything. That weekend was one of the best of my life and I can't wait to go back next year and do it all over again! There's less to do this time around as far as planning goes, but there's still things that need to be taken care of before that last weekend in August. I'm still hoping to lose more weight, so I'm trying to keep up with my walking and healthier eating.

Taking care of myself & my mom: Life has not been the same since my dad passed away in May of 2006. I could literally write a book about how I've progressed through the grieving process up to this very day. I've changed so much since that day and not always for the better. Truth is, I hit some very deep lows, especially in that first year afterwards that not even my mom knows about. I'm hoping some day I'll have the courage to tell her. Long story short, I'm still digging myself out. I've come a long way, but I'm still failing in a lot of areas. Sadly, this means I'm also letting my mom down. She has health problems, which she's not looking after, and so I'm going to have to step in and try and get her to do it. Problem is, she's extremely stubborn and I think, in denial, and really doesn't want to do it. I know if I push her, it'll help, but I'm trying to fix myself as well, so adding her into the mix isn't easy. I love my mom, but I wish I could get her more motivated to do things to help herself out. *sigh*

Trying to find the Holiday Sprit: My life is so mundane that it's a little tough to get into the holiday mood anymore. You add to that a sucky economy, no job, no social life, and knowing there'll be one more less of us when we gather with relatives at Christmas, and it's hard to find the spirit. Even Thanksgiving on Thursday will be very different. Instead of my aunt hosting as she always does, my cousin K & her husband are taking over the festivities this year. She's been wanting to do it for a few years now and with my uncle's death this past May, she wanted to make things easier for my aunt. I'm looking forward to being with everyone, but sadly my grandpa won't be there because of his sore foot. I found that out today and I'm kinda sad about it. I don't like the thought of him being alone that day and I'm thinking of mom & I going up to see him Saturday maybe. Anyway, I'm listening to some classical Xmas music to try and get myself in the mood. I remember when I loved Christmas and I'd listen to the music right after Halloween. I loved being with the family, playing games, eating, having all kinds of fun. Now our gatherings are getting smaller and smaller and it's just not the same anymore.

10. Parents: Just my mom since my dad passed away May 12, 2006. I still live at home and with her health problems I really don't see that ever changing. We get along for the most part, though we butt heads every now and then. I honestly don't know what I'd do without her.

11. Who are some of your closest friends: I really don't have many friends, never have. My real life best buddy was my best friend in high school. Many of you know her as meagansworks. Problem is, we usually go long stretches without any communication, though when we do communicate? Look out! We can talk for HOURS! I love her dearly and she's an incredible gal. ♥ My other dear friend in RL would be my cousin, K. We grew up together, with one house between us. We were kinda like sisters as children, very close. We still are close and even though we don't live as close anymore (she & her husband are in Seattle) we still have great fun when we're together. She's always been so supportive of my filmmaking desires and I've supported her singing talents. As for online friends.....there are several of you, who I'd call close friends and I'm ever so grateful to have found you here! *hugs* I'm also thankful that I've gotten a chance to meet some of you in real life at VanCon! Yay!!!! Hope I can meet more next year!

So there you are. My life...such as it is. Hope you all learned a little more about me. :)