Screaming in my head
Sep. 27th, 2010 05:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raloriaDon't even know why I'm making this post and I'll probably regret it later, but here goes...
I'm under some real life stress right now and I've been tempted to talk about it here in a flocked entry, but I keep hesitating. I'm sure that talking about it to you, my flist, will help me, but it's a delicate situation. Meanwhile, keeping it all bottled up inside isn't helping me either. I'm starting to feel like Dean in Season 2 when he kept that secret of what John said from Sam. He couldn't keep his secret and I'm starting to doubt that I'll be able to keep mine. It gets real tough sometimes, especially in the evenings when things are quiet online and I feel most alone. Then it starts eating away at me.
So all the heavy posting over the past few weeks? In large part because I was avoiding this issue. Had to keep myself busy so I wouldn't think about it....but of course, I did. It still helped.
So yeah...pointless post is pointless as I continue being vague about this problem. I'm sure I'll spill my guts about it soon. It's getting increasingly more difficult to put on the brave face and pretend nothing is going on. Thanks for listening.
I'm under some real life stress right now and I've been tempted to talk about it here in a flocked entry, but I keep hesitating. I'm sure that talking about it to you, my flist, will help me, but it's a delicate situation. Meanwhile, keeping it all bottled up inside isn't helping me either. I'm starting to feel like Dean in Season 2 when he kept that secret of what John said from Sam. He couldn't keep his secret and I'm starting to doubt that I'll be able to keep mine. It gets real tough sometimes, especially in the evenings when things are quiet online and I feel most alone. Then it starts eating away at me.
So all the heavy posting over the past few weeks? In large part because I was avoiding this issue. Had to keep myself busy so I wouldn't think about it....but of course, I did. It still helped.
So yeah...pointless post is pointless as I continue being vague about this problem. I'm sure I'll spill my guts about it soon. It's getting increasingly more difficult to put on the brave face and pretend nothing is going on. Thanks for listening.
