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raloriaMy bad, negative voices are talking to me again, telling me I'm stupid, lazy, and a hundred other things. I did this to myself, how pathetic is that? Me and my big mouth. I went with my gut instead of my head and that was wrong. It seems like a silly thing to get upset over really, but it awakened some kind of self-doubt in me and the voices kicked in. I'm stupid. I take things way too seriously. The list goes on and on...
It's sad to think that two people on my flist made me feel like this, but the voices were not theirs they were mine. But I felt it from their words, under the surface....and so the self-abuse began. I do not blame them at all. The fault was mine. I put the words in their mouths, so to speak.
I know I'm making a big deal out of nothing. If I think about the whole thing one way, I can see how ridiculous it all is. But on the other hand, I can't ignore the feelings it brought about.
The voices are going to make me cry again. Best to go to bed and get some rest.
It's sad to think that two people on my flist made me feel like this, but the voices were not theirs they were mine. But I felt it from their words, under the surface....and so the self-abuse began. I do not blame them at all. The fault was mine. I put the words in their mouths, so to speak.
I know I'm making a big deal out of nothing. If I think about the whole thing one way, I can see how ridiculous it all is. But on the other hand, I can't ignore the feelings it brought about.
The voices are going to make me cry again. Best to go to bed and get some rest.
