Welcome new friends!

Spent the past 6 1/2 hours going through the huge list of people who've friended me. I do this every now and then to see who I want to add back.

So a big "Hi!!!" & "Howdy" to: agent_jl36, fickleone, ina_ami, mymuseandi, paloma1182, sakurazukakami, and soydolcelatte! *waves* :D

Just so we're all clear....I didn't cut anyone. That's not what this was for. I was adding. Most of you know I very rarely do LJ cuts. Basically, if you can see this f-locked post, you're in. :)

I know I need to do a post about my friending/de-friending policies. It's long overdue. That'll come a little later, but it is needed because there's been some confusion about it lately. I don't want people worrying. I'll just say this for now....if you think I'm going to cut you, most likely I'm not. It's not even a thought. So don't fret, okay? Don't feel the need to cut me first because you think I'll cut you. Remember....I rarely do LJ cuts.

Anyway, there'll be more about that later. Welcome new buddies! :D

A few random memes

'Cause I needed a little distraction overnight. Heh. ;)



( 3 behind the cut for space... )

Why isn't there a mood theme for overwhelmed?

Sorry, but I need to vent/spill my guts for a minute.

I've never had a panic attack in my life, but I feel this-close to having one.

( Stressed out ramblings ahead )

Just 'Cause

This cap is from S5 "Good God, Y'all".

We need a new cap of Sam from S5 don't we? Of course, we do. :) I really like this image. For once I like his hair in his eyes. *g*
Um....I'm spent, I'm stressed, and I'm done. I need some sleep and possibly a tranquilizer. Heh. I'm going to devote all my time today to answering comments. It has to be done. No more procrastinating. 'Night all. *collapses*

My Friending/De-Friending Policies

This is to clear up some confusion I feel has come up about who I add or cut and why. There's been some defriendings that I've had to clear up in the recent past. I hope this explains everything.

( Why I friend and/or defriend... )

I do not need this crap

I'm never doing an anonymous meme again. I thought I could handle it, but I can't. Not in the state I'm in. Getting attacked by people anonymously sucks. Kind of like getting hit with rocks with nothing to use as a shield.

Yeah, I got another crappy comment.
This is the type of thing that makes me want to quit LJ altogether.

You Just Can't Quit

Spent the past several hours thinking and processing the fallout from my participation in the anonymous meme. I won't deny being hurt by the 2 3 negative comments I got over there. However, the dust has cleared and I'm done being bothered by cowards who attack behind the veil of anonymity.

When all is said and done, this is MY LJ. I have plenty of people who love who I am and love what I do. They appreciate the hard work I put into everything and they understand that I can't always comment on their journals. I am grateful to them all, even if I do fall behind in my comments.

And to those who think I should comment more on the journals of others? My Flist numbers over 200 now. If I spent time leaving comments to every person each day I would not have time to make things for my own posts. I leave comments to as many journals as I can, or that I have a response for. I'm not a machine, I'm a human being. I do the best that I can.

Btw, when I mention that LJ is quiet, I'm talking about Livejournal as a whole - not just my journal. I'm online a lot and I observe when LJ is going through it's downtimes. It's not meant as a complaint that my LJ is not getting enough comments or enough visits.

Anyway, when the going gets tough, the tough pick themselves up and move on. Am I going to stop being hurt by negative comments? No. I'm a sensitive soul and I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. I can't change that. As a shy person in real life I put myself out here online every day. Accepting that I'm going to get wounded along the way is a learning process for me. Dealing with this meme is simply another one of those tough lessons.

But now it's time to get myself back to doing what I do here on my LJ and what a lot of you are here for. If you disagree with the way I run my own journal, if you think I'm whiny and complain too much, if you're dissatisfied in any way....you can leave at anytime. I'm not keeping you here and if you don't like the way I do things on my own journal you can go elsewhere. I'm not going to change my ways for a select few and I'm not going to change who I am. Rick Nelson said it best in his song, "Garden Party"....

"But it's all right now, I learned my lesson well. You see, ya can't please everyone, so ya got to please yourself"

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Well, this journal is My Garden Party and I'm going to do things my way.


Big huge hugs to so many of you for your amazing support and love! Thank you so much for your encouragement and for reminding me what I'm here for. ♥ ♥ ♥ *HUGS* ♥ ♥ ♥