raloria

Sorry there's no Just 'Cause post today, but Friday was not a good day/night for me.
If you follow me on Twitter, you saw the progression. Not pretty.
So many have reached out to me with support, but I haven't had it in me to reply yet.

It hit suddenly, overtook me, but I'm finally seeing some brightness. I don't know why.
These feelings hit and then leave so mysteriously.
I feel a little better, but I just don't have the energy to choose a cap to post.
I hope a good sleep will reset me.

I hope you all understand. ♥

Hello, my friends.

Sorry for being away for the past several days after my emotional Tired post last Thursday.

I want to thank all of you who left me such caring and supportive comments on that post. It means a lot to hear from you when I'm crashing and burning. There's the SPN Family and then there's my LJ Family and it's so nice to know you're out there. *hugs*

I want to begin by apologizing for indicating in that post that I was the only one with a busy and exhausting life. That wasn't my intention at all. All of us struggle with our lives and things we have to do, long hours, family, drama, etc. I know this. I never meant to make my troubles more important than any of yours. I'm sorry if I offended anyone.

The only way I can try to explain that Tired post is that things just piled up on me all at once and due to me being tired and drained from the day, I wasn't able to shake it all off like I often do. And even though I did think a lot before making that post, I made it without thinking everything through and let my emotions run away from me. Never a good idea, but I'm human - it happens. I felt hurt and I wanted to put it out in the universe - not that it really helped me because it didn't. Yeah, sometimes sharing doesn't help one heal. But it seemed like a good idea at the time.

I also didn't intend on staying away from posting here on LJ for more than one day. But the hurt feelings and the message from a friend spiraled me into a mini-depression. It also got me thinking long and hard about all sorts of things in my life, and for that I am grateful. So as difficult and painful as the past few days have been, I've emerged with a sort of plan and I'm ready to get back to my online life again. Btw, I never really left...I was lurking around on LJ the whole time.

And I can't promise that this sort of meltdown won't happen again. As I said, I'm only human, and I sometimes let my emotions dictate my actions instead of common sense.
Thank you again for those of you who said you enjoy my daily posts. It means so much to hear that. ♥ :)

Stolen from about half my Flist. Everyone's doing this thing today. lol

A - Age: 39 for a few more weeks then I'll be the big four-O. Eeep.
B - Bed size: twin (must admit to being jealous of others who've done this meme - all have bigger beds than me *pouts*)
C - Chore you hate: Washing dishes.
D - Dog's name: don't have one
E - Essential start to your day item(s): checking email and Twitter on my Smartphone
F - Favorite color: I really love all colors, but I usually like to wear either red or various shades of blue.
G - Gold or Silver: Silver
H - Height: 5'11''
I - Instruments you play: don't play any
J - Job title: Unemployed / caretaker for my mom
K - Kisses or hugs: Hugs, but I generally don't turn down kisses. ;)
L - Living arrangements: Living in my aunt's house with my mom until we can fix up our house & move back in.
M - Mood: Okay, a little tired.
N - Nicknames: Val, some people call me Ral here on LJ which is kinda neat. :)
O - Overnight hospital stays other than birth: None
P - Pet Peeves: Impatient people, drivers who endanger the lives of myself and others simply because they're in a hurry.
Q - Quote from a movie: "Never tell me the odds."
R - Right or left handed: Right
S - Siblings: None - only child.
T - Time you wake up: Depends on when I get to bed, which is often late. *iz bad* I'm working on improving it though.
U - Underwear: Boring old white briefs for underwear, as for bras: white, beige, or black (the black ones make me feel sexy even if I'm not).
V - Vegetable you dislike: Peas/lima beans.
W - Ways you run late: Oversleeping, internet.
X - X-rays you've had: Just my teeth and my back many, many years ago.
Y - Yummy food you make: The only thing I really "make" is our salads and even those start out as "kits" that we buy. However, I add tomatoes, carrots, shredded cheddar cheese, various salad crunchies, and croutons - occassionally (and when I can get them) hardboiled eggs. Yummy! :D
Z - Zoo favorite: Haven't been to a zoo since I was a teenager (hope to change that soon though), but I always liked the cats, sea otters (cute!), zebras.

Folks, I'm taking a brief break from my online life.

It's been a rough...well, year and even this week has felt like a month. So after thinking about it over the past few days I've decided I need a little break from LJ, Twitter, Tumblr...everything.

But not to worry...it'll only be for a couple of days. I figure that's enough to refresh me.
Besides I'm not even sure I could stand to stay away from LJ longer than that. :P

I feel a little conflicted about it, of course. Like so many of you, I've noted the quietness of LJ lately and I hate to add to that problem even a little, but I also know I need this time for myself.

So enjoy today's posts. I'll be back sometime Sunday. :)

Mom & I cut each other's hair on Saturday. We do this every now & then because it's convenient and free. :P

My hair hadn't been cut since before VanCon last August so it was quite long (down to my shoulders) and frizzy. Bleh. I used to love having long hair, but now that I'm older I find I can't tolerate it anymore.

( Pic of my ugly mug hidden behind the cut - venture further if you dare! )